WELCOME!

 
I'm going to invite you to set the intention for this journey before you actually begin. To know that these are seeds that you can choose to plant within your heart, and then learn to be the gardener of for the rest of your life. To learn from my walk, but find the confidence to choose your own road. To Love Yourself, radically, forever.

Step 1:
To create a little space in your home where you go and practice this new Self-Love.

It is allowed to evolve over the next month, but starting where you are and having a space that physically reminds you that you have choice to enter and choice to leave, is so beautiful. To honor yourself and learn to Love your journey, because this is all for you. 

Step 2:
What helps you process most? A journal, speaking it aloud, drawing, dancing? Add this element to your safe space. 

It, too, is allowed to evolve over the next month, but starting where you are is a reminder that you're not starting from scratch. You're just finding your new brave.

You are capable. You are loved. You have choice. You are supported. Always.
 
 
 
 

FAITH, TRUST, PIXIE (SELF-LOVE) DUST



BONUS

 
 

THE TRUTH OF BEING ENOUGH ACTIVITY

The intrinsic, beautiful, raw, real truth of all this...is that you are enough, you always have been, and you always will be. Because there is nothing that could be done, nothing you could do, and nothing you could miss on your journey home to yourself that could keep you from standing in that eternal worth right now. And, after all that we have accomplished over the course of this month together, this piece is the one thing I pray that you carry with you forevermore. 

I am enough.

To say that, know that, feel that, and rise in it. To stand back, into the shoes you started in, off of the Soul Ground we are cultivating together, and yet never be estranged from it again. To go anywhere, face anything, be anyone and know your truth. That you are enough, always. 


As I move into this new week, what is my intention? Where have I previously struggled with fear in my hear in regards to things that I have faced or come up against, in the external and internal? What resources do I now know I hold that will keep me standing on that Soul Ground as I move out of this sanctuary and into real life?
 

  • What have I already establish in my journey that reminds me where I stand and how can I use that in the present tense, instead of simply carving yet another new pathway in the wilderness towards the future?
    • So often we find ourselves sifting through the resources in our back pocket in order to move forward, but what if we were to learn how to trust that everything would work out for our good by standing in the present (even when life is shit) and reminding ourselves of what we currently have. 
    • Whenever things go wrong, fear rises up, we face new levels of healing, we are completely blindsided by a storm, we have our Soul Ground to stand on and remind us that our eternal worth is ours no matter what. Relying on that is the most sacred power because we are not seeking to increase the Love we have access to, we are simply allowing ourselves to receive it. 
    • Since that is undeniably harder than it sounds, because usually when things go bottom's up we tend to blame ourselves, or think "if only..." statements. So, this week instead of relying on anything external, we're going to shift the focus once more to the internal and find just how we can stand on this support when we most desperately need it: when our external world is crumbling, and the only solid ground is inside us. 

Loving Reminders: I know many of you are walking through things rising up within you now. I am so sorry for what you have endured and what those aftershocks of enduring create, or demanded of you as you survived them. You always have choice to stop this, take a deep breath, and receive from some time away. Some separation. Some distance. I trust you to know what your heart needs. 

You are capable, but I am sorry for the times that was mistreated and abused. You deserve comfort, and you deserve rest. You are loved.


Mantra/Prayer/Meditation: I am, and always will be, secure. For what I have can never be stolen from me, and what I have is me. 


 
 
 
 

FREEDOM WITHOUT AN EXPIRATION DATE

 
 
 

LOVE NOTES:

  • For so long I believed that if I didn't run that I would not reach where I needed to be...
  • If I didn't claim my readiness, and stepped back before stepping knowing why I should step forward, I was broken....
  • If I didn't feel the way I "should" I was less than....
  • Now, I stand on a Soul Ground of my own heart, and I realize all the many destinations I attempted to reach, and carve into the unknown roads, don't lead anywhere....but my own soul. 
  • I am my destination, and I am eternal. I will never miss my exit, my mark, my life, because I am them.

REMINDERS:

Past’s Voice - fear, isolation, blame, heaviness.

Love’s Voice - forgiveness, grace, understanding, validation, support, truth.

Your Voice - unique, powerful, important, human.

 
 
 

 

INTENTION:

To know the absence of color, as much as I know color. To honor both, for both have been important. 

To know that seasons change, and endings are sometimes just as important as beginnings. (and not just because there is a beginning after an end - not just because everything has to end in joy to be valid, because it's not always that way.)

To feel. To fly. To be whole. To not know. To trust. To question. To doubt. To skip. To leap. To love. To listen. To hear. To walk. To not move at all. To dive into the deepest oceans. To find doors where opportunity shouldn't have existed. To stand and let everything I thought I needed burn away, so I can reclaim who I am in the wake of the freedom. In the wake of the absence. In the feeling of my pain.

Outside the paved paths of control. Outside the known roads. Outside where the trees whisper truths, and the winds beckon us to come. Outside where freedom lives, unbound by our own understanding. Outside...where the wild roam. Where we were born to stand with heads raised. Where nothing else is needed, but us.

This is where freedom is found. Outside. Barefoot in the dirt. This is where freedom renews. Outside the fucking walls, and off the man-made concrete, and away from the shoulds. Outside where we have nothing to cling to but our own one-ness. Our connection. 

Where we wake in the middle of the night and the light turns on in the darkness of our unknowing, and we realize what we needed all this time was to step back before stepping forward. Where we understand that everything we have ever wanted is right there for us, we just forgot it usually whispers...so we've spent too long heeding to the shouts. Where we finally find who we have been all along, and reclaim them.

Life sometimes sucks, it makes no difference how high you rise or how at peace you are, you can't outrun it. There will always be people who disagree with your choices or how you feel or how you look. It's not about aligning to everyone else's views, it's about finding YOURS. It's about learning how to access our freedom, our expansion, our healing, our truth...no matter what comes. It's about choosing to learn Love, so we can learn to feel Love, in all places and experiences. Then going out, and being stewards of our HeartCalls. 

To stand in the opening of all this work and to say "I trust that everything will work out for my good, because I am my good, no matter what my external world looks like". We are whole and healing, and we our ability to rise is never contingent upon the outcome...it is contingent upon us. How we feel in our skin, rather than what we see outside it. That feeling of freedom is therefore then the sign of whether or not we feel trust, instead of just choose trust because we think we should. 

We are reclaiming our lives with our very own two hands.


Homework - 

Meditation Day 1 - As I walk through my first meditation today, how do I feel? Was it challenging to slow down? Did pain rise in the midst of it? What do I need?
 

  • This week is all about introspection and discovery. We are going to be journaling, spending time outside the course, and generally connecting to our own power. Our way.

How can I design my own homework this week?
 

  • Yep, that's right. It's the week of self-led discovery. You are going to be in the leader's seat, and guiding yourself through what you need to thrive.

Pep Talk -

I believe in your ability to guide yourself. To listen to your needs and provide for them. To see yourself as whole, not broken, and still healing. To rely on your resources, ask for help, and stop when you need to. 

You are capable. You are enough. You are loved.

Mantra/Prayer/Meditation -

As I sink into my heart space, and breathe. These are the words I feel: I am worthy of trust, and I am allowed to receive from that space. I can take a break, and not be less, knowing that everything will work out for my good, because I am.


 
 
 
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OWNING YOUR ARMOR

 
 
 

LOVE NOTES:

  • I used to carry my armor on my arm, in a shield of my own design...
  • I used to hold up all I needed to protect myself till I was exhausted and isolated from the world, without really even recognize...
  • Everything I needed to be was for my survival, but now I can be more...
  • I am choosing to lay down my shield, because I know I am safe, and slowly allow myself to feel why I needed it...
  • To replace all the space I have made in my heart with the pieces of myself that I had to make part of my old shield...
  • To come home to myself, once more.
  • I am safer than I have ever been.
  • I am cared for. 
  • I am every resource I have ever needed.



REMINDERS:

Past’s Voice - fear, isolation, blame, heaviness.

Love’s Voice - forgiveness, grace, understanding, validation, support, truth.

Your Voice - unique, powerful, important, human.

 
 


 

INTENTION:

For so long I walked with walls around me, and in many cases I still do. It's not necessarily a bad thing, for many of the things the world labels as "dirty" or "unhealed" in me have been used to protect me in situations where I was vulnerable and still learning. From relationships, unhealthy roads, and rooting down in places that would have damaged me in the long term.

So many times my fear of people kept me safe, and I'm grateful for that, but then I learned there also comes a time when we recognize when are shield and sword feels too heavy. When our life no longer requires that heavy of armory, and we have choice to live outside the walls and not be in danger.

I want you all to experience a whole life, which is why I have given you this space to realize that you will know when it's time to expand. To create different boundaries, to say "yes" and know it doesn't have to be permanent, to engage and to disengage, to explore, to leap, to stand still. Not when 'they' (the world) think it's time, but when you feel it's time. When you're ready to deal with that memory, to acknowledge that trigger, and to know you are whole through it all.

To understand that you are in no way broken beyond compare, and that your coping skills are resources. We just get to pull back a layer at a time, when we are led, and sway into new balance with life and exploration. We have the opportunity to honor ourselves, without feeling like we're less in that honoring. We are enough, always, and when we sink deeper into this practice...we never have to fear that everything will work out for our good, because we have our good already. A good nothing can manipulate, or endanger, or silence anymore. Our voices.

Homework - 

Meditation Day 2 - As I walked through today's mediation how did I feel? Was it challenging to connect, did I feel vulnerable, or was it nurturing? Did pain rise in the midst of it? What do I need?

  • We are walking out meditations this week as a form of self-confidence. Odd right? Well, entering into a space of safety and peace, that is personal and reflective, is now becoming our new shield and sword. Our space of reflection and care. Our time to till the soil, and understand what we need to let go of and then ask for. 
  • When we know what we need and who we are, on a vulnerable and intimate plain, we can more easily decipher what we don't need outside of it. Taking this meditative skill outside this place and using it within our lives. 

How can I use my voice in new ways this week?
 

  • Our voice is now our shield. Where we set boundaries, ask and receive, speak our truth, and remind ourselves that we are enough. We are allowed to be heard, and it starts by hearing ourselves. 

How can I design my own homework this week?
 

  • It continues! It's the week of self-led discovery. You are going to be in the leader's seat, and guiding yourself through what you need to thrive.


Pep Talk -

You are allowed to use your voice, even if that means saying "I am not ready, I need time". The reason healing looks so weird to people is because we heal out of order. We heal when we're safe enough to heal, in that particular area, even if we never assumed it was something we needed to heal in the first place. 

Life is triggering, no matter what your past is. As you expand into the wholeness of living, you will continue to see life invite you to take on another aspect of healing. That does not mean that you are less or that you are not enough, in this moment. You are invited to heal, because life is inviting you to Love. To own your power and speak your voice and claim your shield and sword. 

For you can go anywhere, and not be without. You no longer have need to be afraid of the depths. 

 

Mantra/Prayer/Meditation -

I am powerful, I am wise, I am creative, I am held. I have a Love that cherishes me, that sees me, that supports me in every single what that I need. My faith is my own design, and it is beautiful. My voice is my own, and it is valid. My shield and sword are real, because I am.


 
 
 
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BECOMING ONE WITH YOUR OCEAN

 
 
 

LOVE NOTES:

  • I am allowed to feel, and trust my feelings. 
  • I am not less because I am scared, and I can move even if I fear movement. 
  • I am trustworthy. 
  • I am centred, even when I sway.
  • I am more.



REMINDERS:

Past’s Voice - fear, isolation, blame, heaviness.

Love’s Voice - forgiveness, grace, understanding, validation, support, truth.

Your Voice - unique, powerful, important, human.

 
 

INTENTION:

 

For years I was told that in order to be healed, to love myself, to be free I had to spend my days building a boat...
This boat was beautiful on the outside, but the inside kept filling with water as it road the ocean waves. However, instead of questioning the boat, I questioned myself instead.

I filled my cup with the fear of unworthiness, yet I kept it all contained. Afraid that speaking this truth aloud meant I was somehow accepting the fear that I wasn't enough. Giving in. So, I shoved them deep down inside, and learned to not question. To just do. To just hustle. To just survive...

Until one day, I realized I was allowed to unclench my hands, and lay my worries at Love's feet, as I placed my palms on the ocean instead of the man-made boat. I was not bad or wrong to fear, feel, or doubt. It was not I who let the water in, it was the unrealistic expectation that water couldn't get in. That I couldn't be human. That I wasn't allowed to be messy. That I couldn't possible be more, so I had to be be less because there wasn't another option....until I made one.

Homework - 

Meditation Day 3 - As I walked through today's mediation how did I respond? What did I feel? What do I feel now?
 

  • How can I carry this peace into my life? Or maybe, how can I lead myself to what I need, after I have discovered what I do not need? 


What would it feel like to listen to my voice, no matter what it says, and trust it completely? To let myself wander the roads, and not choose a label, but rely on the feeling?
 

  • We began yesterday by exploring calling our new shield our voices, and now we're going a step further. We're at the point in our journey where we have most likely uncovered a lot. Where the dust is far from settled, but we are solidly planted as we feel all we need. As we redefine and reclaim and restore. As we step into truth, and know our voice. 
  • How can we practice using that energy today, even further? To trust our voice, even when the water gets in. To trust the ocean, and to be apart of it, not just separated from it.


How can I design my own homework this week?
 

  • Or in another word, how can I design my rest? How can I trust my emotions, without letting them be bigger than me? How can I step back, so I can step forward in wholeness?


Pep Talk -

This month has not been easy. You have made active choices to delve deeper into your healing and choose freedom. You've reclaimed so much, and are walking this out at the pace you need to. You are learning to trust yourself at a deep and powerful level, even when you're scared to. 

This journey is not about finding ways to face more pain, but to uncover more freedom. More space to breathe. More space to know that the first person you can turn to is yourself. Your own heart. Your own inner compass, and validate the feelings, validate the humanity, validate the needs and then go out and seek them healthfully. 

You are capable of leading yourself, and this week is all about that. I trust you. I trust you to seek the affirmation when and where you need it, and to learn from that. To know that being your own leader doesn't mean being alone or perfect or pressured. It means being you.


Mantra/Prayer/Meditation -

I am capable of trusting myself, because I know who I am trusting. I am reclaiming my voice from my experiences every single day, and understanding more about how it feels to be one with my emotions instead of separated from them or controlled by them. I am able to feel and choose and re-choose, because I am. 


 
 
 
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YOU ARE MORE THAN YOUR PAIN

 
 
 

LOVE NOTES:

  • What I have experienced and who I am are two different things. Acknowledging what I experienced allows me to reclaim who I was in the experience. 
  • To feel the experience and understand that I am not that feeling allows me to uncover more of my truth vs what I assumed my truth was. 
  • I am not who I had to be to survive, and I have choice to be whoever I choose to be now. 
  • I am powerful. 
  • I have power.
  • I am true.




REMINDERS:

Past’s Voice - fear, isolation, blame, heaviness.

Love’s Voice - forgiveness, grace, understanding, validation, support, truth.

Your Voice - unique, powerful, important, human.

 


INTENTION:

So often we invalidate the power we hold, unintentionally. We claim that our wisdom and intuition comes from experience rather than true gifting because we are so often taught to quiet ourselves and our purpose, and do things the way we should. So often we stand just outside our calls to rise into leadership because we think that we need to be "more". More special, more profound, more known, more savvy, more intelligent, more experienced, more youthful, more old, more successful, more equipped, (less broken). 

I talk about healing being a life-long journey, because it is, but that does not mean that you are not whole enough or that you have a destination you must reach in order to live in your abundance. To be powerful. We are choosing to participate in the dance. To feel, to respond to that feeling, to serve our hearts, then...to act. Whether that action is a word or a move across the country, sharing my raw heart with a loved one or opening up and declaring that we will no longer be silent. That is our power, and it is ours from day one. We are never too broken for it, we are simply peeling back the lies that tell us we are.

This our life, this is our leadership in action, this is our freedom to choose. To be more than just "in progress," but to be alive in every facet of life. 

It is what it means to be willing. To participate. To actively pursue. To walk out the things you may never had the opportunity to, but now for some reason can (right, you're here, you're reading this, you're on your way), and then learn to choose it. 

This course may have challenged us in deep and everlasting ways. Ways that we may be only beginning to scratch the surface of, but that we can choose to be committed to serving well. Challenge is nothing new for us. However, just because we actively choose to embrace challenge now, instead of challenges finding us in patterned ways of coping, doesn't mean it is any less hard. Just because we are free and unbound and colorful and vibrant doesn't mean we don't spend time on our knees in tears snuggled up with a tub of ice-cream. Just because we are leaders, doesn't mean we can be unaffected by life. It actually means the very opposite.

Our truth, no matter what it looks like or how "profitable" it is, is powerful. Our truth is our voice, and we have every right to be heard. 

Center down. Listen in. Snuggle up to yourself. Hear your heart speak it's truth. Hear your mind think it's truth. Watch your body walk it's truth. Connect the dots of your soul and know that every cell in you is valid and powerful. 
You. are. Gifted. You are more. You are you.

You can own your power.


Homework - 

Meditation Day 4 - As I walked through today's mediation what was my immediate thought? How did I feel before vs. afterwards? What can I take away from it? 
 

  • What is one thing I've learned about myself in resting?

What are some ways I can own my power today? What are the boundaries I need to establish around this new segment of my life to keep it safe and rather than hidden?
 

  • Walls vs. boundaries. Something we will constantly, and are completely allowed, to sway into. We are learning more and more our power is choice, not singular decisions we can never take back. We are discerning, seeking, and waiting now because we are safe enough to.
  • As we continue to move forward in that fashion, how can we practice our power with us first? 


How can I design my own homework this week?
 

  • As I move into the last segment of this course, what is it that I need to be aware of for my own heart?

 


    Pep Talk -


    You are gifted. You have skill. You are not in any way demanded to make that skill profitable. You are allowed to love yourself first, before you ever have to share that power with another person. 

    I believe you. I support you. I hear you. Your voice is respected. Your power is honored. You choice is valued. You are not silenced, and you are not unseen. You are safe. 

    You have the ability to move forward and carry this work with you. Whatever you have uncovered here, you are allowed to sway into finding the right way to carry it for yourself. To not have it be a weight or a burden, but a promise and a hope.


    Mantra/Prayer/Meditation -


    My power is a sacred thing that I am still learning how to honor, that is beautiful. I am allowed to be human and carry this, and I am allowed to hold myself at arm's length for as long as as often as I need to. I have the support I need, because I have the resources I need. I can receive from others, and give to them, and I have choice in both. I can embrace all of me, because I am.


     
     
     
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    RISING STRONG

     
     
     

    LOVE NOTES:
     

    • I am made to rise, and so I shall. Without demand or pressure, but with Love.
    • I will rise, because I can. Without fear of fear, or without guilt from feeling guilty, I can rise.
    • I am capable.



    REMINDERS:

    Past’s Voice - fear, isolation, blame, heaviness.

    Love’s Voice - forgiveness, grace, understanding, validation, support, truth.

    Your Voice - unique, powerful, important, human.

     


    INTENTION:

    The tension that comes from standing in the space between the release of the arrow and the arrow hitting the mark. I am standing in that zone of genius right now, and boy howdy is it challenging. Yet, as I continue to enter into the space between the release of the arrow and the arrow hitting the mark, I realized what a gift it is.

    For so long I had to just release and run, in order to keep up with survival. To make a life or death decision and then make the next one. Standing in the tension between preparing for the call, and then heeding to the call, is the most equipping time. It is where EVERYTHING else falls away, and all that is left is you and Love and the rest of the world quiets (even if quieting means that you're "losing" or releasing things and it's scary) and you come to a point where instead of sitting there and clenching as you wait in slow motion for that arrow to hit the dreams you've always wished, you turn around throw your hands in the air, and praise. Knowing that whatever marker it hits this time...it's yours.

    Yesterday...I danced. Not just like swayed or forced or shoved myself into a zone of "Just shake it the fuck out sister". I stood in my kitchen, after everything that I have been walking out, and I just danced. Earbuds in, badass music in my brain, and my soul returning to my body, after retreating for a few days as I shed all that I no longer needed. Then I actually worked with LOVE in my heart. Not a to-do list that I felt pressured to do, but my a Skyler-list that I felt called to do...and it felt so bloody good. The work I've come to call my divine purpose, because it is. The work that was co-created as I stood in the tension between the arrow being released and the arrow hitting the mark....Hope.

    You have this ability to dance. To place on your metaphorical (or real) headphones, and sway to the music. To shake it out, off, and about. To make your own to-do list, and not mine or theirs or his or hers. To reclaim your life, and rise off your own ground. To be and become, forevermore.

    omework - 

    Meditation Day 5 - Who am I today? What do I love about me, and what is frustrating? How can I choose hope over fear?

    • This sanctuary will always be available to you. Do you feel led to take a break? To go back to another part of the course? To sit still and digest?

     

    What can I let go of this week, so I can claim what I now have as real?
     

    • Sometimes life is sharp. We feel the tension of the emotions that war within us, as we embrace our wholeness and choose to align passionately with our purpose saying "I am learning to live free, unafraid."
    • We can absolutely feel the sting of letting go of the beautiful things, hard things, wonderful things, old ways of thinking, friendships, love, homes, jobs, communities, and "______" in knowing that they are no longer needed, and that their season is done. Even when it feels weird to mourn something that wasn't good for us, we are allowed to.

    After everything I've walked out in this course, what are the main things I am taking away?

    • Looking over my journal, what are the big differences that I can note? What can I celebrate about myself? How can I add celebration into my life from now on?
    • What is one thing I can do for myself in my daily walk that will support all this new growth?

    Pep Talk -


    You are so bloody amazing. The work you have done here may have been hard, felt endless, and rocked you heavy, but look at you. Look at your felection. Look at everything you've done and celebrate it. Because I am. I am celebrating you today and always, and I invite you...to do the very same. 

    Mantra/Prayer/Meditation -


    I am free because I am. I will rise because I was built to. I am me because I was made to be. I am whole and healing. I am...home.



     
     

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